damn man i dunno wth's wrong wif my parents sometimes..i mean wth..if u didn't like me riding bike y didn't u tell me frm e start..it's been like a few months since i told u..u had like so much time to tell me..i noe i'm nt @ hm most o e time man but if u reali needed to talk to me i would've made some time..

but y tell me nw..?aft everyting's done alr..like so wad u wan me to do man..wth..n whoever said anyting abt blaming u..if i get knocked down on e road by some whack shit n die..i'm nt gonna blame u whoever said anyting abt blaming u..it's my own decision to learn bike wad..y would i blame u..

den again it's all abt dance rite..no matter wad..blame dance..i dance til backache y will blame u..?? u say it's an analogy but y choose dance..?? smth i can relate to mayb..?? balls man u noe how much i hate u shooting e whole 'dance' issue..it's been lidat eva since i started..anyting goes wrong..it always goes back to dance..u'll never understand how it feels like to dance..cos u've nvr tried..


damn...den in end u say jus forget it drop it..y u always run away when dere's a prob..den nxt time dis will surface again n it'll become an even more heated argument..damn..if u keep runing away, how will tings be solved..?? i hate to say it but izit an act o cowardiance..?? i can't respect dis attitude man..

i wanna noe, i wanna understand, cos i care..ur views are impt to me..dat's y i wanna find out..if nt i'd jus like say "yeah yeah fine i get it".. damn..y can't u understand..i'm so pek cek dat i almost cried in e showers man..i care..u all matter to me..damn..

haiz..mayb it's best dat we keep seeing each other to a minumum..den dere'd be no chance o conflict..

damn i hate it when ppl tell me to do smth, n their instructions arent' clear..den when is spent like damn long doing it alr..u tell me it's nt wad u wan..wth man den i gotta redo wad i did when u jus gave me some vague instruction..?

balls man wth u're wastin my freaggin time _|_





i knew rite frm e start dat we're nt o e same lvl..balls..thank God dis is e last freaggin proj..

lol kiap sent me dis whole junk o chinese email abt some love shit..which turns out to be quite meaningful haha..even though i spent super long trying to read it haha..dere's dis para which i tink dope man..


如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：
> 爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；
> 要道歉，也要道谢；
> 要认错，也要改错；
> 要体贴，也要体谅；
> 是接受，而不是忍受；
> 是宽容，而不是纵容；
> 是支持，而不是支配；
> 是慰问，而不是质问；
> 是倾诉，而不是控诉；
> 是难忘，而不是遗忘；
> 是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
> 是为对方默默祈求，
> 而不是向对方诸多要求；
> 可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
> 可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。



super chinese rite haha i dun even understand wad i'm reading @ certain points o time haha..
but nvm la if it's in chinese looks more chim..den like got more 墨水 lol..

anyway finally went to register my class 2b liscence tdy..which leaves me more broke den eva man shit..i'm officially declaring my bankrupt status nw..save money to e max man..cannot anyhow spend liao lol..

anyway brought my guitar out n ard tdy cos wan pass to peggy..n i gotta admit haha though it's jus a 3/4 size guitar..feels like got e seh to carry a guitar ard man..i do miss playing e guitar..but i'm jus like too busy le..so many songs i wan learn..so little time..so many tings to do..shit man...i nd more time..!!

went jon's hse to play guitar hero yest..damn..e singing part was damn funny man..eye of the tiger.. RISIN UP..!! lol..n dammit by blink 182 oso..silent start sia hahaha..shit..too funny liao lol..




n oh..happy founder's day to all scouts..though it's abit late lol..
Always remember that a Scout is never taken by surprise; he knows exactly what to do when anything unexpected happens. - Lord Baden Powell

damn..heard some old songs tdy..reali brought back memories..

like mayday's 超人 and jay's 浪漫手机..reminds me o like poly year 1 b4 i joined dance..how i was like..n thanda oso haha..dun anyhow tink man..we're jus friens nw lol..but haha..year one was fun..wif e gls n all..n my whack hair lol..

oso got aaron kwok's 是不是该安静的走开..courtesy o david haha..dat time i tink ppppp nt formed yet..den got e legendary vid o david again haha..wif me n shane as backup dancers lol wth..til nw i still tink david super funny la haha wth..

den got diddy's last nite..reminds me o e amk hub performance..haha..dat time ppppp was still small..n e perf where david did his legendary scratch head ting..n my pike almost crashed me off e stage haha..n shane had his problem wif e lians n e red "strawberry" condom on his head lol..damn..those were fun times..

which reminds me o whitely sec performance oso haha..when my bboy is even more cui den it is nw lol..do footwork til my hand bleed haha..but..e bridging e gap was dope..we were so sync dat when somehow bw stood in front o me i totally disappeared haha..damn..those were e old glory days..though e days nw still damn shiok haha..

but i sure miss those times..when we were all students..all we had to worry abt was studies..catching e last bus hm..dun get debarred..doing a nice nike freeze haha..

den e classes by yiu, lee daniel n bo..i mus say dat o these 3..i enjoyed bo's one e most..i dunno y but i jus do haha..yiu de oso damn dope but it's so long ago le so i tink nt a fair comparison ba..but lee daniel de jus too hard liao can't catch @ all haha..but damn..bo use e song oso damn dope lol..

it's over now

but damn..we all grow up too fast..

went to meet ppppp to eat sushi buffet tdy...cos eve's flying off back to aust liao..so fast la..i rem e last time she came back it was funka..so we didn't reali spend much time wif her..den we were like..e nxt time eve comes back we'll like spend more time wif her..but damn..we're all so busy nw..she came back..oni like met her like 2x..once was @ funka..den e 2nd time is tdy..damn..

i still rem when we first sent her off @ e airport man..damn sad la..i'll always rem dat scene man..walao..too emo le..but nw haha..she's flying off again..n we like can't send her..haha take care huh eve..been nice to hang out ard wif u..though nt much haha..

n as usual..i ate til i almost puked..same as last time we went sakae sushi @ cwp..n haha i tink ns reali make me stupid sia haha.. "eleven" and "six"...haha wth..but damn..reali nice to jus eat n chill once in awhile..though it's bad for me..financially n physically (my tummy has been sticking out for qutie awhile alr =[ lol )

ppppp has come a long way since when we first started out..yeah we grew bigger..but oso i tink i'm like more reliant on dem man..seriously thank God for ppppp..dey're reali fam to me..guys (n gals) if u're reading dis thx for being ppppp man..reali appreciate it..

damn..hope we get to haf a ppppp chalet soon..n keep alex away frm e drinks man..for all our sakes lol..



anyway..tdy got one day rest frm bboying..tml..chiong mills again...!!! haha..
n damn..i bet alot o my unglam pics/vids are gonna surface soon...hope i'm wrong lol..

woots haha my windmill got new understanding tdy..lol thx lex for sharing haha..dope man..though..my shoulder e abrasion opened up again..i seem to be paying for my mills wif blood huh haha..but who cares man..i noe wad i wan..n i'm gonna get it..

haha dis is random but i rem tylor gage sayin smth like..it's betta nt to want anyting @ all..cos if u dun get it or if it gets taken away frm u it doesnt hurt dat much...i tink it's true man..but..in dis case..i noe wad i wan..n i'm gonna get it..real soon..mills baby...!!!

n airchair spins too..shit those are e most beautiful moves eva..n it's gonna be MINE...!! haha..




been totally unmotivated to do NS recently..i noe someone will probably be reading dis post..n taking note o it..like someone monitoring all e traffic..but well..i guess i can say dis ba..i feel no drive to serve man..it's like everyday i'm living jus to go studio break oni..everyting else seems..jus a passing phase for me to get to e studio @ nite..dance..bboying.

i seem to be withdrawing frm like other stuff except dance..am i getting like addicted...??like loosing interest in almost everyting else man hhahah..k la i mean i still treasure my friens n stuff..but like mon to fri...like wth..i seem to be counting down e hours to book out..n trying desperately to make time pass faster..damn..



mills baby..free barrels by end o dis year @ least..

woots tdy mills got continuous haha damn shiok..first time do liao lie dere giddy giddy n keep laughing..tink i going abit nuts lol..damn happy man haha..but aft doing a few times tired den can't break anymore liao for e rest o e day lol..


tdy go camp dat time i overslept sia..wake up dat time e bus pulling away frm al ameen dere..heng nxt stop i alight n cross over dat time got one 67 jus nice come lol..but damn..on 852 got one hwa chong guy sat beside me den when he sleep i can feel he like resting against me..n e sick part is dat i felt his hair on my face la walao _|_

i tried to like shake him off by like popping..but obviously i'm nt terence so it didn't reali work..so i tink i jus elbowed him n kicked his knee or smth lol..damn..scully i get charged cos o it haha..it's kinda like indecent behaviour rite..u can't like hug ur gf in no4....if it's a guy it'll be even worse haha..


woots dis song by tao zhe damn dope..i'm so gonna learn to play it on guitar la..though..dat's wad i've been saying for dunno how long liao..

普通朋友


等待我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱

我猜你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈

我愿意改变 what can i do
重新再来一遍 just give me change
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能放手

但你说爱
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在你心中只是 just a friend
不是情人

我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i 我不能只是be your friend

i just can't be your friend
o no 不能做普通朋友

damn tdy jazz class e chanae (i dunno how to spell lol) make me super giddy sia..bloody hell..giddy til like 5min b4 e end o class den i stop being dizzy..reminds me o e first jazz class i eva took wif ann like when i was a freshie..like seriously man..e scene is like e same one..dammit..i reali can't do jazz for nuts man..i've got zero flexibility, my control sux..haha..in short, i can't dance haha..

took like a long nap aft lunch..cos reali too tired liao..k la got go lib buy bbl tea in e middle o my nap..like aft e crew meeting finish..den come back studio sleep again..but dope sia..sleep halfway tink o set den wake up try it out den sleep again haha..

had dinner @ xing's..haha but bought bbl tea again..shit sia i'm spending money like siao but nvm..v long nvr drink liao so tdy drink 2 cups nvm haha..like shiok sia..dun regret going to buy haha..anyway thx xing for e steamboat @ ur hse though haha abit crowded lol





went pass lsct tdy..kinda miss e life dere..i tink God gave me a few tings dat i love alot..namely dance n science..k i like playing e guitar too but nw too busy for dat..but yeah..i miss going to e lab n doing stuff sia..e smell..e entire process o e experiment..n attachment..oh God dat part was like heavenly..one o e best experiences in my entire poly life man..learnt super alot dere la..v inspired by my attachment superviser..i tink by nw shld be Dr Goh Choon Peng alr haha..or gcp for short lol..willing to share wad he noes..ok wif mistakes..relaxed..chill..damn..makes me wanna get my phD oso..though my grades nw suck..

thank God i went to lsct sia..it's kinda cos o dat den i went nra one..lol i dunno y i like life sciences so much man..it doesn't reali pay well..kinda like wad pascal said huh..gotta be like a samurai o science to do dis field..damn..too dope alr..i tink i sound like one o those science geeks rite haha but bo bian la..i can't help it man lol..i jus love it haha

to understand and determine cell to cell binding proteins,
and to induce cell to cell binding in a controlled environment

so many variables, so many unknowns, so many factors dat can affect the experiment..but i jus love to find out..cos it's for e betta good rite haha..

=D

i realised i'm like quite hum ji one..
like very hum ji..
k la last time is reali hum ji to e max..
but nw nt so bad alr..but still quite hum..

lol y i so hum ji...??

went for post production party tdy haha..e venue is super random la haha @ e pavillion..last time old sch recital dere..e place where ore did his dope battle lol..met shaomin to go dere..wanted to sleep on e way de but ended up talking lol..

den is like haha i can't make retro @ all man haha i tried but ended up dressing like how i always do..den i quite stone..cos slept 3 hrs oni..e programmes were funny la haha..ivan is a great host i tink lol can enter e entertainment industry haha..but overall it was nt bad la..can c dey put in alot o effort into planning props to e organisers lol..

den aft e ting we were like hanging ard outside taking photos n pwning our eyes wif e camera flashes..den dere's supposedly like dis random clubbing event aft us..den is like suck cock one sia..one o e event organisers wan chase us away...budden another one o dem trying to get some o us to buy tix..like wth..ur frien screwed ard wif us alr man n here u're trying to make some business..?? haha wrong move man lol..

but by e time we went cine i was alr half dead liao..@ first no appetite to eat one budden see zx e bk den hungry alr lol..budden eat oso like half here half dere one..until start to tok cock den abit o life come back haha..but dammit sia..on nr1 i overslept..heng e uncle like stop e bus b4 leaving yishun n i wake up..if nt i tink i'll wake up back @ town la haha den sure gg one lol..






lol saw thk on e bus tdy..still looks e same haha..reali respect dat guy man..most relaxed n chill lecturer ever..kinda inspirers me to wanna be a lecturer too lol..



n damn...y all e danzation vids is all my unglam shots one lol

damn i noe dis song is probably old..but i reali like e lyrics..

it's by machi..


石头变黄金


想想我有什么成就
爸妈到六十还不敢退休
曾经志同道合的朋友
问我还在撑要撑多久
唱片业愈走愈退后
大家都怀疑这头路吃饭够不够
有人因为穿着看不起我
看不到我未来她离开我
我没有闯祸但是我却没有得到糖果

送出demo像沉进水里没回音
他们说这不能卖钱没有人听
你的年纪是那些新人两倍
花公司的钱栽培根本是白浪费
emi说滚开环球说你头壳坏
被sony当屁华纳说你不会卖
他们看我又来就把铁门拉下来
被打击看扁我也不们停下来

别人当玩票性质
我做音乐不只做一辈子
我要的是machi 4 life
不是一张叫合约的纸
身上的刺青用来写我历史
写着命运要靠自已控制
未来用我的方式
我唱的是事实不是歌词
麦克风给我就别想叫我停止
大哥不用再动一根手指
我帮他赚的绝对够他再开好几家公司

只活一次不能白活拿命换一个结果
机会一次不能放过拿命拼一个王国

我知道你是谁有什么梦要追
往自己的天空飞
我知道什么是对有什么梦要追
没有时间能浪费

要我停下来不要绕舌
就像一个人妄想能挡住黄河
为了我的梦不怕痛
练到喉咙流血脚底流脓
如果有种一定不会穷
拼到好几家公司觉得还不够成功
永远要做抓不住的龙
以前算是一个笨蛋因为高中没念完
爸爸生了这个没用的儿子
麻将桌上让他很没面子
别人的孩子都是名校我这么不孝
害他一直放炮

现在爸爸一直自摸
另外三家要他儿子的签名照
以前吃便当现在吃鲍鱼翅汤
以前听校长念
现在我在八国国庆总统面前表演
我相信一条命就要一直拼
不会停的人有一天会赢
没有事情是天注定拼了你的命
石头也会变黄金



damn..it's dope reali respect wad dey say man...
chiong ahhhhh....!!!!!

OH MY GOD wth is wrong...

i installed dis firewall called zone alarm i used it b4..n it worked fine for me..but nw it's freaggin screwing up my internet..i can't access some sites, my com's lagging up like some retard's brain n it's pissin me off sia i seriously on e brink o tears alr..


GOD DAMMIT....!!!